As this year draws to an end I sit and reflect……… my whole being kicking and screaming that it doesn’t want to celebrate another Christmas or roll into another year without you but it has to. I hate it but have to for your brothers. I am torn for the lives that need me and the life that I know is cheering me on from above.
I sit and think of the things we have achieved so far this year. Getting a brand new charity up and running, various charity events held by us and other wonderful people so we can go on to help others who are forced into our position. But I also want to fight on for change! I can’t live in a world where you can literally get away with murder, I want to educate people that their actions have severe consequences. I’m not sure how I’m going to do that yet but I will start by showing my children that when that stone is thrown and the ripple effects bring on a tidal wave, We don’t roll over and give up, we fight on any way we can and hopefully by doing that we can pass on that kindness.
Today was just one instance of that getting up and ploughing on. After a few weeks out of my running for The Brighton Half marathon training, this morning was one of those days I could have rolled over and gone back to bed! Last run I only managed 25 minutes after a chest infection. Today I managed 30 minutes non stop running, now this might not sound a lot but at the beginning of the year I couldn’t even run a minute without thinking my lungs were going to explode. So today was a little win! That then brings me crashing back down to my ‘why’ - the reason why I’m doing it. The frustration builds, the tears come, I take a minute compose myself and remember I have lots of whys and have to do it for all of them, because there is nothing else I can do!
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